and the history continues...

Sometimes love histories just paused... sometimes they just ended even if we dont want it to.
Today is a cloudy day... its a sad day for some people... but today may be a good one for me.
I am a deep depression. and i need to stop.
I need to stop. I need to be able to enjoy my days again. i cant go on like this. My daughter is claiming my attention. the people around me is too. It seems that only work is capable of distract me.
Its enough ! I really need to move on.
I guess this is what happens when you fall in love and that person is far away... I cant stop missing him... i guess distance relationships are not made for me...
I need my man on my side. i need to feel him everyday.

I dont blame any one but me. i always knew he wasnt going to stay here... i tried super hard not to fall for him... but i did...
and now.. its killing me...

i need to stop. i need to not depend on him... not wait for him, i need to go out of this room.
I miss myself... i miss my happy self...

watching ghost hunters

Imagine that... just that... i will be off for a couple of days!!1

domingo.. dia de cambios...

Hoy es domingo. dia de cambios... se acabo la tristeza y la depresion.
Ya estuvo bueno!
Esta semana que viene es nueva mentalidad

cansada de todo

estoy viendo una pelicula,
escuchando a mi nina reir en la sala con los hijos de Olga...
Estoy tratando de distraerme pero no puedo
estoy tratando de no pensar
pero no puedo
asi que estoy escribiendo en mi blog

El Proximo fin de semana lo voy a visitar...
tengo unos dias de vacaciones y
los quiero aprovechar...

the man of my dreams

How is the man of my dreams?
I dont have a specific picture on my mind,
but this is what i like...
He has to be strong... stronger enough to carry me on my bad days
he has to have a warm smile, enough to warm my cold toughts
He has to be a good kisser, good enough to take me to the sky everytime he does it...

Im back

So much for me traying to stay away from the blog...
It really helps me understand why i do stuff sometimes.
I am going through a lot lately...
i had some balance in my life for sometime.... but then i met this wonderful guy and my life got better... but now he is gone, he is back at his home... and i am left out here... in a fight with the balance that i need.
I know that having a long distance relationship is hard... to me its almost impossible! i dont even know sometimes why am I doing it... it hurts.
i dont know if Im seen you again soon...
I feel lonely...
i do miss your company, your laughs... your hands around my body
Anyway
Work is hectic! everything is crazy, last minute and late... I am feeling a lot of stress.. . im trying my best but nothing seems to catch up... i just keep going... but sometimes is so hard...

What works for me lately...its enya music... im trying to cool off!